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WISHFUL THINKING

WISHFUL THINKING

 

promise me that there’s a possibility
that we’ll try again under different circumstances
you know what the yogis say in L.A.:
love yourself before you love someone else

lost for words, lost in a fantasy
trying to set my heartache to a strange melody
when she sleeps
and when she smiles
I can see her as a happy child

hardly awake I’m already daydreaming

scheming how I can keep you from leaving me
don’t you feel that we can still learn from each other?

oh, how I wish we’d met when we were younger
“wouldn’t it be nice” but the other way around
in a time before the world had started pulling you under

hide and seek, a shy kiss on the cheek
drowning in your ocean-coloured eyes
the smell of sunscreen on your skin
I wonder how it would have been

remember sitting in the kitchen one night?
felt so close to you I almost cried
hell, I don’t even know your sister
I miss you so much when I listen to Phoebe-fucking-Bridgers

oh, how I wish we’d met when we were younger
“wouldn’t it be nice” but the other way around
in a time before the world had started pulling you under

oh, I know she’s already gone
think I’ll have to bury my phone
learn how to cope on my own
how can I find the will to move on?

LOOSE ENDS

 

I have to break the circle 

that my thoughts are running in

tied up all loose ends into a knot inside my chest

now it feels so heavy 

I wonder why

it felt so heavy

when we said goodbye

 

by now I should know how dream dies

a beginning is also an end

 

losing sight of a new friend

and I feel like I'm falling again 

losing sleep over loose ends

and I feel like I'm falling, feel like I'm falling again 

 

another night spent smoking cigarette after cigarette (after cigarette)

and the futile thoughts go round and round inside my head

and they drive me crazy (this is insane)

as I lie in bed (tossing and turning)

perhaps I should get up again (you’ll be dead in the morning) 

take a walk instead

I've been losing sight of a new friend

and I feel like I'm falling again 

losing sleep over loose ends

and I feel like I'm falling, feel like I'm falling again 

 

as she drifts away in my embrace

I let her slowing breath caress my face

there’s no bad thought in sight

it’s so easy, right?

to follow her

we’re falling through the night

 

I have to end these endless conversations in my head

but as I close my eyes it all comes back

and I feel so empty (empty inside)

I lost the fight (and you lost your mind)

and the streets are empty (noone in sight)

as I step out into the night

 

I've been losing sight of a new friend

and I feel like I'm falling again 

losing sleep over loose ends

and I feel like I'm falling

I've been losing sight of a new friend

(oh, how I wish we’d met when we were younger)

and I feel like I'm falling again 

(and it’s killing me to see you go)

losing sleep over loose ends

and I feel like I'm falling, feel like I'm falling again 

get a grip man, it’s only love

anyway you’ve got shit to do

this has to stop

CONGRATULATIONS

 

congratulations

you’ve successfully maneuvered yourself into stagnation

like a spider, trapped in the bathtub

with eyes like Ed Norton in Fightclub

you can’t see over the edge 

if you just stay immobile in bed all day long

 

I don’t want to eat

I don’t want to read 

a book or some rant

I just want to sleep but I can’t

don’t want to see a picture of her and some man

yet I’m compulsively scrolling through instagram

at 3 am

 

congratulations

you’ve successfully maneuvered yourself into stagnation

like a spider, trapped in the bathtub

with eyes like Ed Norton in Fightclub

you can’t see over the edge 

if you just stay immobile in bed all day long

SAVIOUR COMPLEX

 

picked you up from your therapist

where you go to talk about your ex

you say you’re better off on your own

without me and my saviour complex

 

in all the time that I have waited for you

I could’ve written a novel or at least a song or two

but if you need more time

to make up your mind

I’ll wait a little longer if you want me to
 

you say you need to fuck this up

you say that you’re still stuck

you say you can’t get over him

you say he lives under your skin

you say this whole thing is a mess

you say you don’t want to have to confess

 

so I’m on my own now

and it’s killing me to see you go

It was quite the show to say the least

oh, I know now and I can’t say that I’m surprised at all

i’ve seen the writing on the wall

 

Follow me, my love

towards the light and sound

in this tale she’s the one

who’s not allowed to turn around

 

been thinking about going to a therapist

to have someone to talk to and cry over my ex

perhaps I’m better off on my own

without you and a dormant saviour complex

 

you say this was never meant to last

you say your heartstrings are tied to the past

you say it will stop to hurt

you say this would never work

 

so I’m on my own now

and it’s killing me to see you go

It was quite the show to say the least

oh, I know now and I can’t say that I’m surprised at all

i’ve seen the writing on the wall

 

for one hot minute it seemed like

my love could pull you out of your romantic purgatory

but you want to stay to you the flames smell like morning glory

 

farewell my Eurydice

farewell, farewell

 

farewell my lover

farewell, farewell

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ABOUT TIME

 

WE CAN DO IT AGAIN

 

now it seems to me, that it just might be the best thing that we’ve ever done together

never mind the weather, never mind the crowds, just hear me out

just let me in, we can do it again, we can do it again

 

I don’t mind if we take a ride down memory lane

but it hurts if those memories don’t mean the same to you, that they mean to me

I apologize if I misread your eyes, again and again

but I know you will remember this time and then you’ll see what you mean to me

 

and the weeks fly by

like clouds in a stormy winter sky

and I still miss you

 

white lies, stifled cries and empty promises

I hope I get to find out what it is that I can do to be free

tears dry, say goodbye and exit the premises

I guess we always knew that me and you just wasn’t meant to be, unfortunately

 

and the years fly by

like clouds in a stormy winter sky

and I still miss you

 

now it seems to me, that it just might be the best thing that we’ve ever done together

never mind the weather, never mind the crowds, just hear me out

just let me in, we can do it again, we can do it again

 

 

 

OSCILLATING

 

fair skin, dark hair

wherever you go, she’s already there

and she’s waiting for you, to show you what’s right

to lead you gently out into the night

 

I’m tracing our steps back to the start

I know that you know, that I know who you are

I wear my mask and you wear one, too

the trick is to show you that I’m just like you

 

as I walk away, on my back I can feel your gaze

if you don’t want me, why did you call me in the first place?

 

what are you trying to do to me?

I’m oscillating between depression and ecstasy

 

I cannot wait until I see you again

but I still don’t know if you do feel the same

I’m giving up, I can’t take it no more 

how many times did I say this before?

 

It’s been so long I can barely remember your face

why won’t you call me, I don’t think we’re done playing games

 

what are you trying to do to me?

I’m oscillating between depression and ecstasy

 

fair skin, dark hair

wherever you go, she’s already there

and she’s waiting for you, to show you what’s right

to lead you gently out into the night

 

what are you trying to do to me?

I’m oscillating between depression and ecstasy

 

DESERT SHUFFLE

 

when the sun sets, I’ll be out of here

it’s about time I go and watch the desert disappear

I turn my back on this destruction and despair

 

somehow, I know my fortune lies at sea 

and I’ll be home and dry by the time you follow me

never say never

 

well, I’m save now, comparatively

but this is not how I imagined my refuge would be

seems I just can’t escape hatred and hostility 

 

somewhere out there a future waits for me

or I’ll be dead and gone, nothing but a memory

forever and ever

 

how have you been dear Elijah?

I’ve always known you’re a survivor

how have you been in the United States?

 

 

 

 

MOTH TO A FLAME

 

your dazzling beauty calls me through the night

and I just can’t resist the attraction of your light

 

to me you are the brightest star

(moon and sunshine, beautiful and divine)

the only one that has ever shone on me

it broke my heart when it went dark

you burned twice as bright but only half as long

 

and I will burn for you

 

but you’re not the one to blame

please don’t feel no shame

I am what I am

a moth to a flame

 

the fire extinguished

I’m drowning in the darkness

and resting my singed wings

I’m still hoping for a spark, yes

 

and I will burn for you

 

every time we touch it hurts a little more

I did not forget all those times before

 

but you’re not the one to blame

please don’t feel no shame

I am what I am

a moth to a flame

 

 

 

 

NIGHTS OF APHELION

 

every night two sheets to the wind

let’s call it bohemian

we’ve never been so close again

since those nights of aphelion

 

I wouldn’t mind but I know what I am missing

this is no confession, this is a plea

then she said to me:

close your eyes, I’ll be fine

dream your dream and I’ll dream mine

 

twilight smiles, hands on thighs 

her eyes like blue obsidian

careless like lost juveniles

oh, how I miss those nights of aphelion

 

I wouldn’t mind but I know what I am missing

this is no confession, this is a plea

then she said to me:

close your eyes, I’ll be fine

dream your dream and I’ll dream mine

 

so that’s it, goodbye my friend

maybe we can start over once again 

in another life, another time

 

close your eyes, I’ll be fine

dream your dream and I’ll dream mine

(nights of aphelion)

 

oh babe, I lost you to the summer wind

no, we’ve never been so close again

and I hope that I can still call you a friend 

I think of you whenever I smell peppermint

THE WATERS OF THE NILE

I saw you standing at the shore crying crocodile tears

I’m lowering the needle onto Tears for Fears

it’s a very mad world indeed

good luck as you try to succeed

everything seems wrong - know the phenomenon?

but I have to carry on

 

gone is another year

how did it disappear so suddenly?

don’t rock the boat but keep it steady

there’s nothing you can do, I’ve tried already

 

like the waters of the Nile 

I rise from time to time

and contemplate this life in fascination

 

from now on I’ll be cool, cunning and suspicious like

Bogart squinting through drawn venetian blinds

I’m gonna pull my head out of the sand 

I can at least try to understand

everything I say, overused clichés

let the tide take me away

 

the current is pulling me relentlessly towards the sea

my oars are broken and my sail is full of holes

time is running through my fingers, incessantly

breathlessly I whisper: save our souls

 

like the waters of the Nile 

I rise from time to time

and contemplate this life in fascination

 

 

 

 

AMETHYST DECEIVER

 

as a child I wanted to be an argonaut

sail the seas and save the world, I thought

 

sons of the north wind

brothers in arms

keep your eyes skinned 

I’ll race you to the stars

 

all my life I’ve waited to fulfil my role

could it be that the gods don’t need me after all?

 

but tonight I feel this could be real

 

Jason take me with you 

Orpheus sing my song

Medea let me kiss you

like I’m the chosen one

 

amethyst deceiver, show me something new

make me a believer, I’m tired of this view

 

who am I and does it even matter?

it’s about time I find some peace of mind

 

amethyst deceiver, my path is yet unclear

Hera, I believe her

she’ll release me from my fear

 

why still try to be someone better?

it’s about time I embrace the truth

ABOUT TIME

 

it’s all right lover, go back to sleep

soon enough you’ll discover that I had to leave

 

oh, these eyes that hide more than they reveal

oh, these words we speak in order to conceal

 

for the first time in years I don’t lie when I say that I’m fine

well, it’s about time

 

what if I could go back, turn back time?

could I jump my shadow and speak my mind, this time?

 

oh, these eyes that hide more than they reveal

oh, these words we speak in order to conceal

 

and when, by chance, we meet again

I’ll curse all our mutual friends and reach for your hand

well, it’s about time

SUNSET POINT

 

I want to be here, you want to be higher
I want to stay near, you want to spit fire

you and me, we can’t share this coin
but we will meet again at sunset point

I thought we could join forces
and find a common ground
ride bareback horses
and let the world spin around

we have to part
I need a new start and you need to follow your heart

this is farewell but it’s not the end
you remain in my book as a friend

you and me, we can’t share this coin
but we will meet again at sunset point

I guess we have to stop trying
and accept how it is
no point in lying
when you fell down the abyss

we have to part
I need a new start and you need to follow your heart

do you remember the first time we took to the sky?
did you surrender the last time we said goodbye?
red and blue line up in time
and night and day are joined at sunset point

I need a new start and you need to follow your heart

THE ISLE OF DOGS

 

THE ISLE OF DOGS

I went down to the river and I went up on the hill
but wherever I go, I only find time to kill
and your lies still echo inside my head
and your eyes lead the way

I guess I stay a little longer, looking for a road I haven’t walked down yet
but whatever I was looking for, it’s one of those things I tend to forget

I remember the isle
white smoke and the hint of a smile
the memory dies, I look up to the skies

and your lies still echo inside my head
and your eyes lead the way

I went down to the river and I went up on the hill
but wherever I go, I only find time to kill
and your lies still echo inside my head
and your eyes lead the way lead me away

 

DOWN TO THE RIVER

down to the river where I used to stay
when you packed your bags and went astray

down to the river, where you once took my hand
maybe I will finally understand


the water’s moving, your lips are too
but my mind is standing still like
you at a crossroads in a long forgotten land
kneeling down and reaching out to touch the sand

and as the sand runs through your fingers
a hearse is passing by the driver almost lingers
but you scared him with your eyes

down to the river where I’ll wait
until you come back home it’s not too late

 

THE SEA

the sea, it always waits for me
whenever I come back, it’s still a mystery, the sea

I feel so alive when the surging sea hits me
the sun in my face, the canvas ready to take me away, out of the bay

the sea, it always waits for me
whenever I come back, it’s still a mystery

wind is all I need and solitude is all I seek this time
and finally all I can see, is a straight horizon line

and when I’m home I sit inside and watch the rain run down my windowpane
then I think about the days, spent fighting waves
I miss the rough rope in my hand and the sand and the smell of the sea

the sea, it lies before me like a canvas for my dreams
and I can see the future coming, can see the past retreat
and  I can’t breath,

I can’t breath

 

BLACK BEACON SOUND

so we beat on
boats against the current
borne back ceaselessly into the past


into the past but never stand still
if you join in, I’m sure that we will
against all odds, find the isle of dogs

let’s meet by the lighthouse, when the sun is low
there are so many things I want to show you

long island shores long left behind
all we need right now is in our minds


and everything is turning around
when you enter the black beacon sound

let’s meet by the lighthouse, when the sun is low
there are so many things I want to show you

the black beacon sound will change who you are
and what you hear is what you saw
the black beacon sound is coming through
delivered by us and absorbed by you

so we beat on
boats against the current
borne back ceaselessly into the past

and now we gonna sell you black beacon glue
and black beacon screws
and sing the black beacon blues
and wear some black beacon shoes
then paint them black beacon blue
enjoy the black beacon view
and have a black beacon stew

 

GREEN HILLS OF HOME

at some point in time, the highway blues seemed like the perfect song to sing
but some memory, inside your head, you can’t forget, is lingering


would you like to take my hand and tell me things I can understand?
I would like to go and climb the ancient willow tree, like we used to do in a memory

green hills of home
I see them tonight
small specks of light
through the trees
so green

I don’t need the seven seas, this black sound is enough for me right now
and yes I’m back, but still not sure, if I’ve found the illness or the cure


would you like to take my hand and tell me things no one understands?
we could go so far, we just need to find an open car

green hills of home
I see them tonight
small specks of light
through the trees
so green

oh so green

small lives inside
quicksand of time
the land divine
green hills of home

 

MOONSHINE AT MIDNIGHT

top down, highway sunset, a desert full of scars
the hitchhiker says he knows a shortcut to the stars
the gas station man can’t fool you, you know you’re being watched
let’s just hope that I’ll reach the sea

how should I know if I’m heading in the right direction
aren’t you tired of these endless imperfections
how should I know that I’m not circling ‘round the light
please tell me that I'm gonna be alright

with moonshine at midnight

the moon is shining in my brain
moonshine lighting up my veins
your eyes reflect a silver star
and down in the city nobody knows where you are

moonshine set me free
let this light shine on me
moonshine, bone white
let this light shine bright
moonshine at midnight

 

TRANSLUCENT ENGINEERING

here I stand, a figure by the road
my wife has left me and the car is long sold
bygone the days when I was loved throughout the land
bestselling author, my name a famous brand
behind the trees, where the hilltop meets the sky
is where I used to go to let my mind fly high
like rain the words were pouring down and
lined up neatly on my string of thought
I wove into the fabric of a dream


soon I’ll write again, I thought a while ago
I’ll just sit down and watch the letters flow
onto the paper, to form the story of
two retired clergymen united in their scorn
but after the first page I can’t carry on

do you remember the flicker of the gas station light?
and do you recall the smell of the dark summer night?
you were sitting right beside me with that dog
and I just kept on driving into the fog
do you remember?


I do remember, but the words don’t come out right
I try to focus, but the page is still white

translucent engineering inside my mind
and everyone knows there’s no comparison to find
something’s inside and needs to get out
to be diluted with doubt

the empty streets I’m walking, in search of inspiration
remind me of another time
and just as suburban fences can’t repel the shadows
I can’t escape my dead life

translucent engineering inside my mind
and everyone knows there’s no comparison to find
something’s inside and needs to get out
to be diluted with doubt

translucent engineering inside my mind
translucent engineering so hard to find
translucent engineering forever entwined
translucent engineering absolutely combined

GOOD MORNING DYSTOPIA

 

PROLOGUE

good morning dystopia, I’m sorry but I quit
at the heart of this urban war, I’ve got to admit
that I’ve been a fool sometimes
but it’s been tough with you, too
oh, what a fool I’ve been to trust in you


5 am, I wake up in my so called home
the only thing I’m sure of is that I’m all alone


good morning dystopia, now I can see
all these years you’ve been all around me
and I’ve been a fool to trust in you
oh, tell me what to

 

FRAGILE FREEDOM

 

a thousand eyes are watching me
as I walk down this street
they see what I see
everybody I meet


down from the walls of this city
every step is observed
they feel no pity
it’s not what you deserve


it’s a fragile freedom and it has to be seen
it’s a fragile freedom don’t you know what I mean?


total confusion wasted in vain
no revolution will kill every urge to reign


it’s a fragile freedom and it has to be seen
it’s a fragile freedom don’t you know what I mean?

 

ALIENATION

 

so here we are now, let’s see what we’ve got
there is this young man
who once woke up in his bed, all alone
and he discovered he was wrong
the world he believed in never existed


the young man’s name is Paul
we’re going to listen to his thoughts
while he’s talking to himself
which makes no sense at all


tell me how to get ready
tell me what to do
give me something steady
something to hold on to
don’t tell me that I’m drifting
I know I’m drifting well
life is not persistent
we’ll all meet up in hell

 

SUBWAY

 

sedated in the subway
by magnetic screens
news about people
nobody needs


pitchblack rollercoaster
neon-blinded eye
brainwash prose
every word a lie


beware of those violent guys
kicking the shit out of you
while you wait for the train to arrive


empty faces
the smell of lead
no salvation
dawn of the dead


darker tunnels
no control
I don’t belong here
deep in a hole


beware of those violent guys
kicking the shit out of you
while you wait for the train to arrive

 

RED SKY

 

red sky over our town
can’t make you stay
it’s the first time someone’s come around
don’t run away


red sky, red blood on my hands
now you have to stay
back on my own again
I still hear you say


nothing’s made for eternity
not even you
not even me


the madman’s selling silver spoons
put them in your mouth
you better be fast and be someone
or you’ll get thrown out


I am missing something
maybe it’s on the other side
and I know that something’s wrong
because the sky glows red at night

 

INSOMNIA

 

long ago I went west with the winds
to the city of the moving shadows
it didn’t take long before I became a shadow myself
and now I’m lost in this cement garden
the cement garden that I used to crave


I see the city in the people and smiles fade away
it brings grief in their hearts
what makes them stay?
yet the city’s got a certain beauty
more and more are coming in
and I’m still here filled with fear
waiting for the dawn


I just did what I’ve been told
I didn’t know that I’ve been sold
and now I’m nothing more than a pale silhouette
so I went up to the old big house
waited for the stormy clouds
to light a fire no one will extinguish


the ever growing concrete plains surround me
the everlasting sound of cars it drowns me
and I see the walls closing in
somehow I have to escape


drifting through insomnia to wake up in a dream
and it’s always getting stranger than it seemed to be

 

THE GUARDS

 

wake up, look around to see
what it means to be free


here they’re coming all dressed in black
with the finger on the trigger
we’re here to say what we think
but they seem to gain vigour
some idiots are throwing stones now
“time to get lost” you say
the crowd of guards is getting bigger
we’re turning and running away


stand against the wall now, then look to me
your picture is taken for your own safety
I remember the last time in this room
I didn’t think I’d be here again so soon


supersonic silence scissors
please cleave this ancient spell
I hope that someone’s making sure that
the guards will burn in hell


I’m watching you
you’re watching me
she’s watching Paul

and the eye in the sky is watching us all


so the city's still got me in it’s iron claw
don’t trust your neighbours, don’t trust the law
and if it hits you, you can’t run away
you can’t hide, you can’t stay


the guards will get you – you know they will
you better start running they’ve got the licence to kill
do you remember the last time in that room?
you better do, cause the next time will be your doom

 

ALASKA

 

let’s go to Alaska, find the mountain peace
I know I should ask her: come with me please
we’ll look down on Alaska, from a mountain view
I see a stir inside of you


where land meets water
where space meets time
where earth meets air
and body meets mind


times of wisdom
in an age of fools
seasons of darkness
and a spring of hope

 

SHINE

 

shine until the end of your time
I could hold my breath forever
forever is not too long


sigh when you found some peace of mind
come with me and dream away


could this be the one idea we had?
maybe it would have been better
to stay in our cage

 

EPILOGUE

 

good bye dystopia, so I finally quit
and absorbed by rural awe, I’ve got to admit
that I was right to go and leave you to die
after all I don’t believe your lies anymore


good bye dystopia, let’s not pretend
while composing your epitaph
we both know it’s the end

 

 

 

all lyrics by Tobias Geberth